Making My Past My Strength

The impossible continues to happen, as one seeks to find self, determined to be released from the circle. The circle that keeps bringing them unnecessary pain and heartache. It was once told that one is not truly happy until they close that chapter to set them free. That chapter is officially closed is what you want to hear. Correct?, as it has taken unessential time from the things that matter most. But when is something officially damaged and may not allow you to come back to what seems real?? Do you trust again? Do you love again? Do you want again? But the question you ask, is what makes you, YOU?? What matters the most to YOU? When you answer that, all will seem crystal clear. I have come to realize that there were people placed in your path for a reason, GOD does not lead you into anything you can not control. As i continue to grow, my past has made my present, my future, my being. Without it, I could not be the female who stands before you today. I hear females speak, as if the end of the world is nearing. Seriously??? What happened to having fun? To just live life? To do things that some said you couldn't? When will people just come to realize that your problems are your opportunities. You cannot have the success without the failures. Always remember that In every defeat there is a lesson showing you how to win the next time. To all my ladies who ask me the question...How do i wake everyday with a smile? And the answer!!! My past is my strength...Hold on to the inevitable, as it will become the possible....

First written December 8, 2008

Curing Debt- The Nitty Gritty

For many this is a major issue, a major concern, a major problem. Debt is defined as an amount owed to a person or organization for funds borrowed. Statistically in America there is 13 trillion dollars in debt, and by 2020 it will increase to 22 trillion. Do you know how many zero's that is? 12 to be exact, that is by far the saddest thing because we are not being taught how to manage and budget our income. There are so many opportunities that make us become in debt before we even can't enjoy that first paycheck. We spend frivolously, at a infomercials, shopping, grocery stores, clubs and everything in between. Last year I came to the conclusion that I didn't know how to manage my money, now my debt probably was less than $1,000 with never having a credit card, but my credit was not the greatest for lack of a credit history. I had unpaid bills, from medical to cellphone carriers. I was upset at myself for not taking care of these items as they occurred, so that I can begin building my credit for that house. Then I asked myself this question, Are you willing to make changes necessary to cure the problem, rather than just treat the symptoms? So I decided to take these steps:

• I enrolled in a Debt Free Class
• Began to discipline myself, create a budget and stick with it
• more obedient through prayer, make sacrifices and cut down expenses
• Build a list on short and long term goals
• Hard work and a commitment to follow this realistic budget
• Learn to say no, be held accountable for your actions
• Be content with what you have
• Knowing your goal in the long run, most rewarding

If you have a credit card and its maxed, cut it up, borrowing just keeps putting you more in more in debt. We borrow for everything, just because a shiny plastic card has your name on it, doesn't mean its yours. Even coming down to not using my debit card, I took what I needed for that week, and left my cards at home. It wasn't a temptation, and after awhile I knew I didn't want the things that I thought I needed. After about 9 weeks, I eliminated a $400 bill, cut down expenses, from giving myself a realistic budget, which still included entertainment, you have to have some you time, but not to take out of your necessary priorities. And yes, I had rent, childcare, transportation, food, clothing and every other expense any American has, but I also limited myself to the needs perhaps to the wants. I score has increased by 150 points in 4 months. I know that there are some things out of our control, we want to attend school, have loans, want to buy a house, have a mortgage, but we have to learn where, when and how we should spend so that we have room for these things. I have 3 children, who one day I would love to send them off to college, this is the time for me to begin so they don't have to go through the hardships I have had to overcome. This is our future, and we need to be more mindful of how our dollar's are spent because the boutique on the corner is just benefiting for the now, and not the future. 

Oxis- The Healthy Truth

Advancing Oxidative Stress Technology Oxis International, Inc. is the premiere provider for the potent antioxidant, Ergothioneine, which is a naturally-occurring amino acid . This amino acid has antioxidant properties. It is the only company that has developed this. In the human body, the largest amounts of ergothioneine are found in erythrocytes, eye lens and semen,and it is also present in the skin and through their patented synthetic manufacturing process remains the only significant commercial source of pure l-ergothioneine worldwide. OXIS International, Inc. is engaged in the research, development and sale of products that counteract the harmful effects of “oxidative stress.” Oxidative stress refers to the situations in which the body’s antioxidant and other defensive abilities to combat free radicals are overwhelmed and one’s normal healthy balance is either lost or severely compromised. The potential benefits of ERGO include its ability to, conserve and maintain the levels of other antioxidants such as Vitamin E, Vitamin C and glutathione.Oxis has several therapeutic compounds that are available to be licensed including anti-inflammatory and several therapeutic antioxidant mimics with potential applications in the treatment of neurodegenerative (Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s), cardiovascular diseases, diabetes and other conditions.

OXIS’ consumer products strategy addresses very important health concerns including aging and age-related disorders that are increasing with trends in US demographics. These concerns include:




•Brain health

•Immunity against diseases

•Anti-aging/skin health

•Inflammation

•Detoxification

•Blood sugar regulation



There products are currently being evualted and include a line of skin care for that anti-aging, as well as health bars, energry beverages and are on the verge of being part of what this world needs.
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Unthinkable- Alicia Keys!!!!!

This video has been anticipated since the day this tuneful melody hit the airwaves. I have seen this song, the lyrics as twitter topics, bbm status, as everyone telling their mate "I'm Ready" The video just proved  how even though life has changed from back in the 60's or before then, when colored were segregated from the whites, we still deal with issues of inter-racial relationships, same-sex couples and other controversies that are always the topic of discussion. It's amazing how she always puts real issues into her videos, how you can feel her words and pain, as love found her, you don't always find love. With Chad Michael Murray, Alicia has done it once again....

Alessandro Dell'acqua

For my men, without you...smile...I love to see a man in a shoe other than white uptowns, shiny pradas(which personally I do not care for) and Maurys(which I don't LIKE). So gentleman step your game up...

Sex and The City 2

The countdown begins with one of the Summer's Box office movies with the return of Sex and the City: 2. In May 2008, the first movie, of the six year series came out with Carrie as the soon to be blushing bride, Samantha with her relationship and trying to stay with one man, Charlotte with infertility issues, and Miranda  trying to cope with work, family, and learns of her husband's indiscretion. I'm ready to see what awaits from these four woman than have been part of our lives for 10 years. I don't know about you, but I can't wait!!!!!

Summer Must Haves

It's A Wrap


A touch of tribal influence, with leather cord detail and braiding.
Leopard-print ponyskin sandals with ankle ties, Christian Louboutin, $465

Or a little more....

Pair these fierce, spiky studded sandals with a slouchy T-shirt dress for a casual night out.
Studded suede flat with ankle cuff, Giuseppe Zanotti for Balmain, $1,075

The Backside

"Sometimes I feel like leaving you,
 but when I think about what we been through, yeah,
 I get a feeling like it could be worse.
Cause I've given you my best, and I don't mind, its fine" Mary J. Blige- Hood Love

Listening to this song and seeing the video, I think majority of relationships have this concept. Our man, spouse, husband,  even wife/girlfriend not calling, picking up their phone, not coming home at a decent hour. Constantly worrying if their okay, what could have happened? And then the cycle begins, and continues over and over again. Years go by, pain,resentment, insecurities, secrets buried, the compatibility factor that because were so use to this behavior, its just normal for us. We don't say a thing, but yet our hearts hurt, we complain to our girlfriends about them not being this nor that, but ask yourself, what have you contributed that they haven't? Love, Loyalty, Honesty...but have you? We fail to recognize the truth, or even deal with it, because the saying is the truth hurts. Can you say that you have really tried, and no not that try that we think is working for US, but for WE. How can we as individuals expect so much from one person, but in return were not putting up half the effort. I hear stories about this person not having a great job, or this person is still living at home, or they haven't finished school, or have X amount of kids, or this or that....But where do you stand? Being a woman, I found that I complained about the man's cheating, but that was his only fault, he brought forth more than I gave back. Crazy was he constantly pushed me to be more than I thought I had in me, but he never gave up on me.

You think about leaving, time and time again?  Thinking its them, not you, of course not you, because you can't obviously do anything wrong? Right!!! So, maybe you did leave, possibly try to move on, went on some dates, and all you come to think about is him/her? Comparing your mate with that person, they don't make you smile like they do, they don't have that swag that's at a million, just being with them is plain "Jane." Can you think about the time when you needed him/her, and at every chance they were always there, made your rainy day see the rainbow, brought life back into you when you thought  things were just hopeless, your best friend is just that. I've come to realize that you must be your mate's friend first, laugh and be silly about all the things that you are comfortable doing with your friends. NO don't divulge every single detail of your sexual escapades, or old boo's but do share your experiences into making it your own. We fail to see that what you thought you have been missing has been in front of you all this time. Relationships are not suppose to be as easy as we want or would like them to be. There hard work, time consuming, heart breaking, but if that's what you want, if you can see yourself growing more and more with this person, then they are fulfilling, they are the piece to that puzzle that might be the missing factor. Love is such a complicated subject, so many emotions, but its the simplest thing when you have communication, a support system, honesty, respect for one another, and friendship. Love for life, for that person that compliments you, not completes, because before anything make sure you love yourself first!!!!

"Now I play tough but not for too long,
You are someone I depend on,
No matter how I act at times, I could never walk away
I thought about it plenty of times, but no one could take your place" Trey Songz

Thank You Ma

Cornerstones of society, able to pull strength from the deepest of reserves. Molding, guiding us to greatness, they say behind every great man is a great woman, I challenge the notion that this just refers to a mate....this should apply to mothers as well. Many of us have grew up in single parent homes, watching our moms break their backs to provide, extra hours worked for birthdays and christmas. Never going without, them never letting the stress of parenting show, allowing us to smile and enjoy the fruits of their labor. This is a day of celebration, a day to let all the mothers out there know that they are appreciated, that they are idolized and adored. It shouldn't take one day to realize this, as we should acknowledge everyday, let this be the turning point in showing our mothers love, for they showered us with it everyday. So let's do the same.

Question of The Day: ASGD/GP

We all know sex sells, and looking at twitter and every social network, more and more folks are not ashamed to discuss it.
So everyday I will be posting a sex question of the day for my curosity and those of my readers, leave comments.

QOTD: Do you currently have a #ASGD or #ASGP( for those that don't know what this means Ain't S***, Good D***, Ain't S***, Good P****), and if so, what are the benefits? And the not so beneficial part about this situation?

Fashion Friday

Some of the Summer picks for 2010:

Ruffles: from shirts with a denim jean, to a firery dress for a night on the town, or a bright jumper(which are my favs)

Wild: For the safari look, with accessories to make a bold look into a hot topic, or a safari top with white jeans

Statement Shoes: From a classy black pump to a out of the world sandal, your shoes must always outway the outfit, this is a must with everything, from a pair of jeans, to that nice fitting dress, the shoe is the way:

Bright Bag: I love bright colors, just something about it them that makes you say "I like what she has on" You can mix and match, with hot pink with electric blue of bright yellow, or if your not into bold colors, classic black or white to make it look new, this is my newest bag to my collection:

Bare Shoulders: We all have sexy shoulders, something about the revealing of a slight part is just Sexy, make the mind wonder:

I recently began watching Kimora in the Fab Lane, and have to say I was never a fan of her clothing, but to see these are some of the items from her latest collection, and I love them, for more information on this clothing line visit: http://www.babyphat.com/

For the Luv of Louboutin

From a sexy slingback to an ankle boot, this man has taste. Save up to 70% and no sales tax,now we all love a shoe with a sale price. Go online, get your mom a cute flat sandal, or your lady a shoe to die for:

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THE PROBLEM WITH HOLDING IT ....

AT ANY GIVEN
IT CAN JUST DISAPPEAR
AT ANY GIVEN
IT CAN JUST GO AWAY
THATS WHY I TRY NOT TO HOLD THINGS
I TRY ... THATS THE PROBLEM .. I TRY
ITS HARD TO NOT HOLD THINGS
WHEN YOUR AFFECTED BY SO MUCH EMOTIONALLY
I HAVE LOST SO MUCH
I HAVE THOUGHT THINGS WOULD GET BETTER, BECAUSE ....
AT THAT MOMENT WITH LOSS ... MOSTLY WILL COME SOME GAIN ..
BUT THE GAIN WOULD ONLY BE PART-TIME
THEREFORE, AGAIN .... I'M HOLDING IT
I'M HOLDING THE PAIN
I'M HOLDING THE TEARS
I'M HOLDING THE HURT
I'M HOLDING THE HEART BREAK
THEN I LOSE SOMETHING ....
THIS TIME IT'S SOMETHING CLOSER THAN BEFORE
THE ONLY THING NEXT TO THE MOST IMPORTANT THING I HAVE
WHERE LOVE WAS UNCONDITIONAL
(DEEP BREATH)... YEAH I LOST IT AGAIN
NOW HERE IT ALL COMES
THE RUSH OF EMOTIONS
SO I'M HOLDING IT
BUT DEEP INSIDE, I DONT WANNA HOLD IT
I TRY NOT TO HOLD IT
BUT THERE IT GOES AGAIN, THAT TRYING SIDE OF ME ....
WHY DO I DO THIS ???
WHY DO I SET MYSELF UP FOR MORE HEART-ACHES THEN NECESSARY ...
YES THAN NECESSARY
THEN IT HAPPENS AGAIN .. I'M HOLDING IT
I'M HOLDING THAT ANGUISH
THAT MAKES ME DESPISE PEOPLE
THAT MAKES ME INTENTIONALLY HURT WITH MY WORDS
BECAUSE I AM SO BUSY TRYING TO HOLD IT
THAT I DONT REALIZE ...
EMOTIONS WILL TRIGGER IT
AND WHEN IT'S TRIGGERED, IT MAY COME OUT WRONG
SO WHAT DO I DO ???
WHAT DO I SAY ???
HOW DO I REACT WHEN YOU BURN ME ???
BURN ME HUH ???
YES BURN ME ...
YOU BURN ME WITH YOUR WORDS
YOU BURN ME WITH YOUR ACTIONS
YOU BURN ME WITH YOUR SENSELESS ACTS
BUT YET ...
I'M DRAWN TOO IT
I'M DRAWN TOO YOU
I'M DRAWN TOO YOUR AURA
BUT IS THAT RIGHT ???
HOW COULD I BE DRAWN TO SOMETHING ...
SOMETHING THAT DOESNT REFLECT ???
REFLECT ???
YES (SMH, I DO MEAN REFLECT)
REFLECT THE SAME THINGS I DO
THATS EASY ..
THE WORLD IS NOT PERFECT
NOTHING ABOUT IT AT ALL
EITHER I KEEP TRYING
OR .. (SCRATCHES MY HEAD)
OR I FIX IT ...
DAMN .....
I WISH IT WAS THAT EASY
BUT YOU KNOW WHAT ???
FIXING WILL BE MY FOCUS
I MEAN,
THEY DO SAY "TO TRY IS TO FAIL"
SO TO FIX ...
MAY BE YOUR ONLY OPTION .......

The Rinse Cycle

From a seed in the womb, once we were thought of, once we were created we have been embedded with DNA from our parents, a part that is in us forever. We talk like them, think as they think, walk that walk, act like them. So is this a good or bad thing? Our actions speak louder than our words. We commit ourselves to society, fall into the whirlpool of what we were taught, what we have seen, what we've allowed. You wonder how and why you just make that choice? That decision. Still continue on with the thought knowing that's not what's right or for you, but yet the urge is so strong. This is what you think is best, what you think you know, because we all think one time or another that we know more than the next. These choices that we thought were for us, that we knew better, turned our worlds upside down. Or so we thought. Have you come to that place that you felt you failed? That nothing was working in your favor? As good as a person you thought you were, always gave, always had a smile, always the kindness, always...always.... always...

We try to fill a void, somethings missing, but we don't know what it is. Try to figure it out but keep on with the cycle. Keep on bumping into that wall, burning up with fire that we keep putting ourselves through. We're not happy nor content, but we just keep doing it, just keep settling. Do you wonder why? Your following footsteps, and it may not be your fault, its just all you seem to know. All you have seen, all you've heard, all you've been taught. Sleepless nights of all the pain, the hurt, and confusion. We want to complain about what's not right, why us, we didnt' deserve this and that, but yet what are we doing to change this cycle? To change how each one thinks, to make it better than what you grew up to. I believe that we all have a story, things happen because they were suppose to, that's our test. Why keep living with all the bad choices, with the insanity of running around in the same circle over and over again. Take what you've learned, the joy, the pain, the sorrow, the goodness, every emotion that has made you mad, made you sad, angry, and embrace it. Grow from these things that build character, this is what makes your skin so strong, your vision so much clearer, your voice being heard over a crowd, this makes you a warrior. Things are always going to happen, some we weren't prepared for, things that may not seem fair, but this is what life is about, to conquer the weaker being, to make it your own. This is your destiny

High School Reunion

Remember High school? Remember the one person that you always lusted for, but never approached? No? C'mon think back, yeah now you remember. I had one as well, her name is Cindy Ortiz. Cindy Cindy Cindy ,very quiet and into her books, Ms. Ortiz wasn't the typical candidate for sexual fantasies but after but with one glimpse of that slightly under five foot frame with a fantastic body and you too will understand. With Breast like Selma Hayek & ass like Lisa Raye you couldn't ask for a more enticing body. To compliment her T&A she also possessed these tantalizing almond shaped eyes, covered with a pair of glasses that only added to her allure, finishing off with a plump set of lips entranced me from day one. I had to have her, I needed that in my life, only there was one problem. She was taken, so my wants and needs were put on hold.
We both graduated with me never letting her know how I felt, that is until Myspace happened. Side bar, thank you Tom. Briefly browsing through my messages one day, I came upon a message, my attention was instantly captured due to the subject containing my full name. Clicking onto my transported me right back to high school, there she was, Cindy Ortiz and by the looks of things time added to her beauty as well as that dick hardening body. Three years had passed since graduation, but it was apparent the lust hadn't.
I quickly replied, not wanting to let this opportunity pass . Our myspace correspondence lasted for about a month first our messages were innocent and friendly. After about two weeks or so our conversations took a turn for the X-rated shifting to text's and phone calls. Talks of favorite positions, fantasies and experiences were the topic of conversations.
It all started with a text message received one morning. Cindy's name flashed across the screen, anxiously I pressed the trackball on my phone opening the text. "Are you still as horny as you were in high school?" (insert h.s back story maybe) A smile developed across my face as I replied. "We'd have to conduct our on high school reunion for you to find out. Ten minutes passed and no response from Ms. Ortiz, I began to wonder if I was to aggressive when my phone suddenly rang. I knew it was Cindy due to the fact that it was Jodeci's Freak'n you playing.
The Call was short and to the point. She asked "What I was doing tonight?", I replied "You". She let out a slight moan and let me in on a little secret. "I'm playing with my pussy" she seductively purred, "Hop in the shower and come over". After copying her address and hanging up the phone, I made a mad dash to the shower, racing like an olympic sprinter determined to win the race.
Within fourty-five minutes I was knocking at Cindy's door. Millions of thoughts relayed through out my mind, here I was about to fuck the girl I lusted for my last two years of high school , less than an hour ago I was in bed, now I'm here. I began to knock on the door when I noticed it was slightly cracked open.
Walking in slowly I called out "Cindy" "I'm in the kitchen" she yelled back. Closing the door behind me, I began walking to the kitchen. Damn!!, seeing Cindy naked on the counter top, one her rubbing her nipple the other hand rubbing her clit almost made me cum on the spot. She looked up at me and smiled not stopping the self stimulation she was engaged in. I maneuvered myself in front of her using my right hand to caress her free breast and nipple.
"Ohhhh" she lightly moaned as I added to her pleasure. Taking her hand away from her pussy I began to lick and suck on the fingers she used to play with herself. The aroma and taste drove me wild. Lowering my head I buried my face between her thighs gently kissing and licking the insides. I wanted, no I needed to devour her pussy but decided to be patient and take my time. Slowly moving my tongue from her inner thighs to her pussy lips made Cindy's body clench, the teasing drove her mad and I enjoyed every minute of it. Laying her down on her kitchen counter I told Cindy to wrap her legs around my neck, lowering my head I once again delved down, this time sticking my tongue into her wet pussy. Moans and curses left her mouth as I moved my tongue in and out her pussy. Tightening her grip around my neck, Ms. Ortiz developed a rhythm by applying then releasing pressure with her thighs. With her legs trembling around my neck, I knew she was close to cumming, I began sucking on her clit tightly while sliding my finger inside her that ocean of wetness, locating her g-spot. "Aye Dios Mio"!!!, she yelled, "I'm cumming"!!!. Her body quivered, and with each extra stoke from my finger, I extended her orgasmal bliss.
I eased her legs from around my neck and lifted the lower half of her body up, kind of like the letter V. Curious to the akward position she was being placed in Cindy asked "What are you about to do to me"? I winked, spread her legs about six inches apart and slowly entered using only my tongue. Slowly I moved my tongue up and down, similar to an oil pump, increasing speed only when Cindy's breathing intensified or when her moans grew louder. A slave to my tongue ,Cindy could a slap her palms into the counter, submitting to the astounding sense of pleasure that washed over her body. Now maneuvering my tongue in a circular motion proved to be the what sent Ms.Ortiz into a euphoric daze, I was actually slipping more tongue into her while continuing to move it like a tornado. Bucking her body upwards Cindy sent me deeper inside of her, each thrust was more forceful then the last, her pussy literally pounding my lips. Timing was essential, I caught on to her rhythm so every time she bucked up, my tongue was spinning futher inside, until she yelled out "Shit, I'm going to explode". Grabbing her waist , I stuck my tongue down deep as possible, feeling her insides get wetter as she came.
While my tongue lapped up and savored her juices, my right hand her began to massage her clit, still a little sensitive from previously cumming, Cindy's body shook trying to endure the sensation coursing through her body. Her Body clenched, not knowing how to react to any feeling she felt. "C-c-c-limb inside me" Cindy stuttered. Reaching down I pulled a condom out of my jeans, as I opened the condom wrapper my eyes never left the site of my highschool crush's body laying across her kitchen counter, sprawled out, every curve in plain view. I smiled to myself, pulled my pants down and slid the condom on.
Cindy lay flat on her back, waiting...eager for me to enter her body. Wetness just waiting to be dived in. Grabbing my dick, I brushed it against the parted pussy lips, directing down towards her clit. Mimicing a paint brush, I gently stroked against her love pearl, biting her bottom lip Cindy tried to muffle the words that yearned to escape her mouth. Aggressive cries of fuck me, were followed by begs of pleasure, the anticipation seemed to be to much for her to bear as I was grabbed and pulled inside of her. A tight warm wetness surrounded my dick, she felt every bit as good as she looked. Pumping in and out, fucking on a kitchen counter...it doesn't get better than this.
The harder I pumped, the more those succulent breasts of hers jumped up and down. Pump after pump I became more forceful, every stroke more intense, sending her tits flailing uncontrollably.Lowering my head, I caught her right nipple in my mouth. I gently clutched it between my teeth ,sliding my tongue out. She let out a passionate moan, all the while clenching her nails into my shoulders. Deeper I plunged and louder her moans grew, soon turning into shouts. The nails digging into my shoulders became bites along my neck, to silence her screams our tongues connected and all that was heard now was the pounding of Ms. Ortiz pussy.
Missionary on the counter top was enjoyable but we had yet to use other rooms in her apartment, I hadn't even used anything from out the refrigerator yet and that's when I decided to be creative. Cindy has a fairly large kitchen so I had her bend down on all fours, still on the counter top as I pulled chocolate syrup from out the fridge. I squeezed and let the syrup fall on to both ass cheeks as well as the top of her ass crack. Looking back at me, Cindy smiled ass I slowly licked every bit of chocolate off her cheeks, making my way to the top of her ass crack. Her body began tensing up, shivering slightly, adjusting itself to the new sensation I presented it. Her cheeks glistened with my saliva, every bit of syrup was gone, sliding behind her, I placed my hands on the small of her back ,entering. I wasted no time, continuing my pace and force from earlier. Grabbing my right hand Cindy applied syrup onto my index and middle fingers. Slowly licking and sucking the chocolate off, reapplying whenever she had got it all off.
Now throwing her ass back on me, Cindy sucked on my fingers harder and harder, my ball sack bouncing off of her lips. Cindy now was pressing her ass farther onto me, sending my dick deeper inside of her. Her speed increased, bucking back in a frenzy as she approached climax. "Keep fucking me" is all she yelled as she neared ultimate pleasure. Cindy came hard, almost pushing me off the counter, now breathing heavy she pulled herself off me, pulling me towards her living room sofa. Sitting me down, Cindy got down on her knees, telling me to close my eyes.
Eyes now closed I felt a cold feeling on my ball sack, then a tongue. She had placed the chocolate syrup on me and was licking and sucking it up. The feeling was incredible. Cupping the bottom of my sack, Cindy sucked gently, while stroking my dick. She paused for a moment, only to continue stroking after spitting into her hand. Slowing moving up and down, I felt the urge the cum. The combination of my balls be licked with chocolate and being jerked sent chills down my back. I could no longer contain in and told Cindy I was cumming. Quickly she placed my dick into her mouth as I exploded, still jerking she made sure to get every bit of cum I released. After making sure I was sucked dry Cindy opened her mouth, revealing all my cum, grabbing the syrup, she poured it into her mouth mixing it, then swallowing.
Now that's a high school reunion!!!

Own Worse Enemy

I believe in fate and destiny but sometimes those beliefs are challenged when it seems as if society has already chosen our path for us. We grow up in neighborhoods where liquor stores outnumber schools and community centers, doctors and lawyers are rarities instead we are influenced by the hustler, the d-boy, fast money & women. Voices rarely heard and faces that are looked at with disdain, parents forced to work multiple jobs to make ends meet, the cycle of fatherless children is endless, a bottomless pit of destruction and pain.

If it takes a village to raise a child then we as a people have failed, where's the support? We are the biggest consumers yet we own nothing, we support other races before giving back to our own community! Why is that? We associate name brands with wealth and success but look at the Bill Gates and Steve Jobs of the world. They don't indulge as we do, they invest. As a people we have no concept of that and it's sad. Imagine if we took half the money we spent getting fresh and used it on our neighborhoods. Less liquor stores and more centers protecting & teaching our children, sending them into the world able to make a difference. Enabling them to control their fate and destiny

DJ play that Song

Meet a Harlem native, DA #1 draft pick DJGETONUP aka Mr. 20 minutes, whose grinding and making names for himself as one of NY's hottest DJ's. This has been his passion for the past 10 years, and been grinding for the past 2 1/2.  He's bringing that UPTOWN swag to some of the hottest clubs in NY and now at the drop of a button, you can download your own 20 minutes of your favorite artists. He's currently working with Producer/Artist Ron Browz on his mix tape, and look out for a new on-line radio show called "Lean Brothers." I Support the movement.

Contact for booking, and much more:
Email: djgetonup1@sprint.blackberry.net
Twitter: @djgetonup
Facebook: www.facebook.com/djgetonup
Download current Beyonce mixtape and more at:
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Our Future

We focus our energy on entertainment, gossip, and things that are non-essential; however keeping us entertained for the moment. What's happening with our teens? From teen pregnancy to sexually transmitted diseases. Being a mother at 17 myself, a young lady still with a baby mentality,  what did I know about having a child? Not at thing, because I was never educated. When did having unprotected sex become a trending topic? Is today's society just continuing to follow in the footsteps of our generations, with not being able to get to the core of the realistic matters at hand, our children. Being from a big city, you see alot, hear alot, there are more opportunities in NY than any other city, which 9 out of 10 times we fail to take.

But when did the club mean more, or a relationship, or your well being? When did people just stop caring about the future of their roots. As I was riding through my new home, Houston, I wondered how old were these young girls that I seen with these babies? To find out, statistically as of September 2009, more girls under 15 gave birth in Houston than any other U.S. city, according to a new national report, and many of the city's teen moms have additional children before they turn 20. How? Why?

Now don't get me wrong, children are the most beautiful creation man kind has ever made, and they are our future; our blood-line. In all reality, its a struggle, at a young age we loose ourselves, still want the things that we were accustomed to having; freedom. I can't remember a time that I didn't get dressed and just walked to the store alone. In a glimpse, having my children grounded me, but also my thought of mind stopped me from being the lawyer I dreamed about being since I was a little girl. Our options are limited, because its a struggle, with childcare, no support, no education, and just a job, we have little to offer. In my high school days, we had no sex education, and looking at today, it seems that our school system continues to keep failing our children. It's time to put our foot on more than just a dance floor. If this is an alternative, because I believe you supporting your children is very important, what options do they have? Can they continue education? Parenting classes? Counseling? Will they have the resources to still be a child, and yet still have one of their own....

Not Myself Tonight- Christina's Back

We all have this side to us every so often.  Christina's back with this all new video "Not Myself Tonight"

You, Me and Her

With different types of ways to keep the "fire" in ones relationship, couples may take it to the next level. Maybe an extreme level. So what if your mate came to you with this question? Inviting another female into your domain, or better yet your best friend? Awkward right? As one who has been placed in this situation, I didn't know how to respond. We know that relationships go through turmoil, from lies to infidelity, from finances to infertility, or as plain as I can get, unhappy. Whatever your relationship is facing, your at your wits end with your spouse, thought you tried everything to change the cycle. But when you really think about it did you really try? If you let him come in at 4 in the morning, stay out 2 to 3 days at a time, never being concerned, nor confronting the issue, just living this illusion that everything is good because this is all you know. Love is not a easy emotion, when you feel that feeling in your gut, that the person your with is what makes you smile even when they aren't there.

So how do you improve your relationship that obviously has came to a u-turn? If you really want it to work, honesty and communication. I never knew what these concepts were, until faced with the nasty truth, to loose a person who you have grown to love. So what was my response to the question at hand? Truthfully, there has always been a curiosity with another female, have I experimented, NO. Will I? If the opportunity presented itself, YES. All relationships have different outcomes with these situations, it depends on the couple. It takes comfortability and security with yourself and in your relationship to prepare one with the outcome, because it can go either way.

Now, with a friend, at the end this is the person you possibly shared your secrets with, she knows things about you that your mate doesn't. I think its fair to say that this might potentially ruin the relationship, I wouldn't feel comfortable after, but again that's my opinion. Every situation will present itself in a different light, it takes a strong head to deal with the outcome no matter what is. Clear your intentions, this is when you take hold of what you possibly lost in your relationship, if your mate wants this to work as badly as you, make your demands. My motto is: you live once, so being open won't hurt. There is no win or lose, just happiness.

Back 2 Business

So began Day 1 of what I call " a roller coaster"- my weight, because it sure goes up and down. So since I been out the scene for almost 6 months and have become extremely lazy, I started light. As many woman who deal with weight issues and want to know the real deal on how to have an "ass" like a rock, and "abs" of steel, we usually hear smaller sized people's insight of what to eat and not to eat. So here's my experiment, my rules of this game. I have 30 days, and this is what it will include:

1. 1 hour of cardio or 3 miles, at least 4x a week, with an hour of ab exercises.
2. NO starches, snacks, juices, sodas, sugars more than 3 grams
3. Eggs, multi grain bars, fat free yogurt
4. Fish,shrimp, salads, whole grains, beans
5. At the end 20 pounds lighter.

In the end all it takes it discipline, My lowest was 118(stress) and my highest 178(yes i was, and i have the pictures to prove them). So Let the games begin!!!!

Music Monday

Toni Braxton, six time Grammy award winner is back with her new sixth album "Pulse" in stores May 4. With her debut first single "Yesterday" featuring Trey Songz, in which they performed(and shared an intimate moment) at the Soul Train Music Awards. Might I say, she looks fabulous.

Reality? Really?

Recently I have succumbed to some of these reality shows, for entertainment purposes only. Majority of these shows have no meaning, and are very pointless. Some may have validity, for promoting albums, clothing lines, or maybe trying to save people's lives. Yet some, like Basketball Wives which aired about 3 weeks ago, I still haven't comprehended the concept. The title itself would make one assume that the show is about the wives of current basketball players. However that is not the scenario, we have ex-girlfriends, so called groupie baby mama dancers, ex-fiancees, one wife(whose husband no longer plays ball) one who is engaged and the Executive Producer Shaunie O'Neal, who filed for separation from Cavs center Shaquille O'neal. The show just epics a bunch of woman, who were in these men's lives at one time, as the show does give these woman credit and seem to be doing their own thing. I will always praise anyone doing anything positive in their lives,accomplishing goals and dreams. I guess I will never understand why what was once  private and possibly intimate(because half or all these woman I have never heard of), become a stereotype that all men, or that matter these basketball players or any athlete are all the same. There are always two sides of a story. The ugly truth is, we can accept what's on the table, or walk away. Classy and sassy, obviously a trait this show lacks.

Before & After

Like many woman of any shape, size, and age we all have something in common that we can all agree on: We want flawless skin. So for years I have battled with acne, blackheads, dry skin, oily skin, you name it, I have encountered it. In 2009, was by far my worst year when one side of my check had a bunch of dark spots. I tried everything from the black soap  the vendors on 125th sell, to Clearasil and nothing worked. I became to have a complex, didn't want to take any pictures and it came down to me wearing foundation, which I have never tried ever. The problem just became worse, as makeup just absorbs more oil and later will break your face out even more, until I saw the commercial for Ambi, and magic happened. I went from dark spots to barely none in a matter of months. Since then I have been a constant consumer of this product. Like most woman, I can't go to the spa and receive a facial regularly, and I love taking pictures. The natural beauty that we are all born with should be just that. I use Ambi black soap, Ambi Fade Cream(which fades away those black spots and has Vitamin E) and Even & Clear Moisturizer with SPF 30 perfect for the sun. Here are some before and after pictures. Also recommend Vitamin E oil for face/hands. Ambi can be found at most Targets, Family Dollars and other chain stores. Or visit their website for more information on coupons, products and a chance to nominate a phenomenal woman: www.ambiflawlessskin.com

P.S. I also keep in my cabinet Clean & Clear Astringent for Sensitive Skin, Blackhead Eraser Scrub, and Morning Burst

Anticipation- Fight Night

So as the anticipation rises for the fight against Sugar Shane and Money Mayweather. The question is who are you picking? As Mayweather has been on retirement for 21 out of the last 28 months, but came out with a fight against Manny Pacquiao, taunting him and playing him like a sucker back in September. Mosley with 52 fights, 46 wins with 39 KOS, 5 loses and 1 no contestant, with his signature win as he claims it  was against DeLaHoya back in 2000.

While Mayweather is known as the undefeated champion, with 40 wins, 25 KOS. Will our "pound by pound" boxer come out with 41 and leave Sugar Shane ready to head into rretirement? Or will Shane bring out the big guns and leave the cocky Pretty Boy going home not so defeated?

For the Luv of Shoes

Many who know me, know I am a huge shoe head, so here's a look in my closet to some of my beauties. Stay tuned cause I know a good shoe when I see one. So keep you posted on the do's and dont's because I seen too many feet poking out, wrong fit, or just wrong outfit..And the shoe makes an outfit!!!!

AWARENESS

So this month in NY is the AIDS Walk celebrating 25 years of thousands and thousands of people coming together, for a cause that is a number one concern amongst Americans in the USA. As of August 2009, 1.1 million people across the United States were diagnosed with the virus. In 2007, nearly three quarters of adolescents and adults were males, mostly man on man. The largest age group is 40-49. The population across is 51% for African Americans, 18% Hispanic. These are just figures; not actual take of how our city looks, and the scary part is this virus is not detected so easily. Sex is a natural thing, more and more young adults are having sex at a faster pace. Being a mother of young children, I too am concerned about how can I protect mine from this disease that has engulfed our nation. First is education, as best as you could I think communication is the key to any relationship, especially with your children. So take the step to explain how important this is. As I have walked in the AIDS walk before, unfortunately this year I'm unable to, register to walk, donate, or better yet educate those young and not as educated as maybe you are in this subject. Just one person can make a difference. As being a daughter of someone who contracted the virus through intravenous usage, 20 years ago and is still standing, I support this movement. December 1, 2010 marks Aids Day.

For more information log onto: http://www.aidswalk.net/

Fashion Mayhem

As we seen on the Season Premiere of The City, former Hills star Whitney Port, debuted her new Spring 2010 collection. This is a 22 year old girl who worked for Teen Vogue and made a decision to continue her career path when she began working with Kelly Cutrone, owner of People's Revolution and of course a Scorpio. She followed her dreams and now has made a name for herself. I loved her drive and determination, when you want something you have to reach for it and don't allow any obstacles to get in your way. Here are some pieces that are pretty good, price range from $99 to $149, from casual with a nice studded belt, to a nice night on the town.  And sizes are from 2 to 18. Way to go Whitney....

For more information on Whitney Eve's collection visit: http://www.whitneyeve.com/

College Scholarships for Single Mothers

So after much thought and consideration I have decided to continue my education and receive my Bachelor's Degree in Small Business Management, as very soon I will be my own boss. So after researching and coming across some foundations that you may be eligible with certain criteria:

1. www.Patsyminkfoundation.org- Patsy served in congress from 65-76 and again 90-02. Her foundation is for low-income mothers with children with a grant of $2,000, however is only giving out 5 grants. Log on to download application and read more for continuing education. Applications begin May 1, 2010 and the deadline is July 15,2010.

2. Jeanette Rankin Foundation- www.rankinfoundation.org - This foundation excepts applications from November through February.

3. W.I.S.P. Change your world scholarship- www.wispinc.org

For more information on these foundations and many more, varying for all ages and ethnicity visit: http://www.scholarships.com/

Why O Why?

So as many of you know and are fans the season finale of The Hills aired on Tuesday, with big suprises and shocks that I think the whole world experienced with Heidi's new experiment? My mouth dropped, as I can't phantom why such a beautiful woman would do such drastic things to make herself feel better. But if you see the context of the whole "Spencer" relationship as many of us woman tolerate, the control factor knocked her down. When being in a realtionship it takes hard work, but shouldn't be the end result of you altering or changing the person you are in order to make someone else happy. Some of us, woman, feel that if we can change something that maybe just maybe our relationship might work. I know alot of woman, even men might see a flaw in what was created, and maybe somethings might not be how you would want them to be. But the truth is you love me as if, or you just leave me alone. I hope that Heidi is truely happy, and as all these reality shows are for entertainment purposes, in the end this is the real world and the insecurities will have you go way beyond your means and needs. So if your happy with yourself, don't let anyone steal that joy from you.

The Big Theory

This is a mild introduction, from a NY city girl, where I lived all my life. Socialized,Partied,experienced life how I accustomed my self to fit on how I thought it should be. Carefree, living for that moment. However that moment became boring and too comfortable, running into the same circle, trying to avoid the things that you know are not for you, but how can resist at 20 something? I finally did, as some couldn't grasp this new fond thought I came up with to just get up and go. But for some, change might be good or bad, but in my world you make it your own. So here I am, the south, Houston. Who would've thought a big city girl could adjust to this country life? What a difference at that, from the food, to the fashion, to the social life, to the way one talks and walks. As I have endured only a short time here, I found that this might be what I needed to make what I have building inside, ready to burst into something that  I wasn't allowing myself the opportunity to do. In a few short weeks I have accomplished more than I ever thought I could, or for that matter would. I am going to embark you on a journey of my opinions, my taste, what I see fit for both myself and maybe some feels for this city that I call home, so welcome to my ride. We will see how a calm somewhat serene lifestyle will bring out of a girl whose just used to living on that wild side. And possibly bring a little life to the quietness that some are adjusted to. Hope you enjoy the movement.